day 3 — before
i am unsure of when « before » is
i was changed by the arrival of Paul in our lives
already, i wasn’t exactly the same as i used to be
the before in this image
before Paul was gone
before he was no longer with us
it shows
the person i longed to be
the person i hoped to be
a mother holding my child’s hand
through the world
guiding him
letting myself be guided
Paul was two weeks old
sleeping against me
protected from the cold by the warmth of my body
womb-like, through the forest
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day 4 — now
now, on this day
i should mother a nine-month old
now, i walk through life
projecting an image i suppose
looking like i am ok
while i hold all this grief
within me
my arms empty
my hands longing to care for Paul
le marcassin envolé 
Just beautiful. Both photos. A hidden Paul (when he was actually here with you) and a blatant call for Paul, in his absence. Thank you for sharing.